Keep it up

So Today i actually felt stronger. I got through Turbo Jam Turbo sculpt.
I am goign to be sore tomrow and I know that means I worked hard.
Cardio tomorow and a trip teh grocery store for soem veggies and fruit.
I have tom uch carbs and no color inmy diet .. no color means no weight loss and I know that deep down inside.
It is something that has been very hard for me.
I am drinking my water and eating smaller low sugar low fat portions and hope to see results soon.
If not though I am still keeping it up after all it took me 5 years to put this weight on.
EVERYTIME I look at something bad I say my matra.
40 by July
40 BY JULY AND NO EXCUSES.
okay jiggle bum go drink some more water.

Feeling good

Although the holidays put a large bump in my road.. I still kept up the mindset that i am going to do this.. rather then I'll never get skinny or your to lazy to get this done.
You'll always be fat.
Now it's... It's going to take time but you can do it.
40 by July
one day at a time.
A slip up is nor a sabotage it's human.
Do this for yourself.. even if I have to make separate meals for my kids and spend more money in groceries.
I can be skinny and I WILL BE
I am disgusted with misled... but this has become an eye opener of how I have let this go and it has allowed me to accept my weight and FINALLY deal with it
not hide from it.
I have stopped convincing myself that i am not THAT fat.... When your 225 your fat and when you are out of breath over your stirs.. your overweight and when you are embarrassed of seeing people you know in fear the won't recognize you... you have to ask why?
Oh I know because you have gained a elusive amount of weight 100 lbs.
This all sounds negative but truth hurts and right now Have to enlighten myself because I have denied what has happened to my body in the last 5 years and every SHITTY FOOD I eat does affect me.
So giddy up!